tfln #4 return of the terrible choices

[muskeg]

you know the drill. have at it, swampians.

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[foxtwo]

you want him to bite you??

yeah, 8 and above is a lot. and i'd say for a first try and exploratory thing, you definitely don't need something that vibrates, either. fingers are good. you want to know your own body, and know what feels good.

have you ever masturbated? surely you have, right?

[strewn]

No. I don't know. He's not a vampire. Wait, who are we talking about now?

All right. Thank you. I'll wait on the batteries and try what you said first. I thought that might be tougher...

When people say "surely," it doesn't exactly inspire someone to say "no, I haven't," does it?

[foxtwo]

i don't think you're talking about the vampire anymore. but you might like to be bitten. don't dismiss anything until you've tried it once, you know?

fingers are good. you can decide how deep you go, and you can add one or two more when you feel comfortable. the easier is to be on your back or on your knees.

sorry, i thought - it feels like one of these things we all do as soon as we realize we can have boners. i didn't mean to sound judgy. but you should definitely do that.

wait. have you ever had an erection?

[strewn]

I'm trying to keep an open mind. There's a lot to consider. Now there's biting...

How many? Three? I'm not sure it makes sense. Not the part about fingers, that makes sense. But the positioning.

I'm not exactly characteristic of most people, so I understand why you'd say that. It's fine. My body functions normally, like anyone else's, but I just never did anything about it.

Now I need to figure it out.

[foxtwo]

don't worry about the biting so much just yet.

well, honestly, i'd recommend you masturbate first. lube up your hand and touch yourself. it's like, your base. once you've got a hang of that, you can try out adding fingers. work yourself up, and then add more lube, and start with one finger. on your back is probably the best.

[strewn]

Okay.

I don't want to get ahead of myself.

I'd just like to feel like I have an idea of what I like. I'll try what you suggested. Thank you. You really didn't have to help me out so much, so I appreciate it.

[ His head is spinning! ]

[foxtwo]

honestly, in my opinion you'd do best with a partner. once you know your own body a little better, anyway. are you doing this with the intent of having sex with someone, or is it just for yourself?

i don't mind. i'm glad to help.

[strewn]

It's both. I'm trying to learn about myself. I haven't had many chances to do that.

But I also want to be prepared to do this with someone special.

Lots of people here have been glad to help us with things. It's a good house.

[foxtwo]

it's a good thing to do. at least you get to know your own body. it'll make it easier for when you have a partner, too.

it is a good house. i was not convinced, at first, but i've been persuaded

[strewn]

I can't really deny being curious. It's not the only way I want to know myself better, but it's a big one.

What made you wary at first?

[foxtwo]

it might help you in other ways, too. but, honestly, if you've never had one, even by yourself, you definitely need to have an orgasm. you deserve it. we all do.

everything did.

[strewn]

You sound passionate about the subject.

Everything is really broad.

[foxtwo]

well, orgasms are pretty great.

it's still accurate.

[strewn]

I thought they must be, since so many people speak so highly of sex in the first place, and that is the goal, after all, right?

I guess it means your journey has been pretty dramatic.

[foxtwo]

well, yes and no. there's something to be said about what happens before the orgasms, too. some people like to delay them as much as possible.

i don't know if it's been more dramatic than anyone else's, but it's made us very wary and distrustful, at first, yes. we're getting better.

[strewn]

I see. So it's okay if it takes a long time. And it's okay if it doesn't happen at all?

It's big though. To go from being wary of everything to being comfortable. Do you think everyone else felt that way?

[foxtwo]

i wouldn't worry about them not happening at all or taking that long, but they can. but everything is okay, when it comes to sex. what matters is that you don't pressure yourself, and you communicate with your partner when you're ready to go there with them.

i wouldn't say we're entirely comfortable. well, joonie might be more comfortable than i am, but he has his reasons.

i think everyone is different. do you feel comfortable?

[strewn]

I think we're good at talking to each other. From my limited experiences communicating with people, we're good.

Joonie? What reasons are those?

I feel as comfortable as I know how. It's a new feeling for me.

[foxtwo]

that's good. it's very important - it's the most important.

joonie's my twin brother, and he's in love. so he's more comfortable than i am.

you like it? this new feeling.

[strewn]

Really? It's more important than anything else? I'll have to work at it more. Not used to talking a lot.

Oh, right- I do know him, but I didn't recognize the nickname. You're both happy here though, right?

I like almost every new feeling I've felt, even the ones that hurt.

[foxtwo]

i think so, yes. if you don't talk about things, then you just start assuming, and that is usually wrong. and then feelings get hurt, and people keep on not talking until it boils over and you might get into a fight that just damages your relationship a lot. it's not worth keeping your thoughts to yourself.

i am happy, sometimes. he is happier. i'm happy he's happy.

you've been hurt?

[strewn]

That sounds seriously unpleasant. I don't want to get in that position, especially with someone I care about. I'll have to keep trying to talk, even if I don't entirely know what to say. It can be hard, when you're not used to opening your mouth.

His happiness makes you happy?

I borrowed someone's power and used it to take away their pain. I've never felt anything like that. I asked first, of course. I promise.

[foxtwo]

it's better than not trying at all, i think. even if you fumble.

yes, of course. he's my brother. he's the most important person in my life.

you'd never felt pain before? why did you - why did you do it? take their pain?

[strewn]

I'm sure to do a lot of that. I don't even know how to talk about some things, much less my opinions. I have to learn.

I see. That sounds really nice to me.

I've felt it, but not like that. I don't know how to explain this, but where I go when I'm not here is like nothing. It's easy for me to get back to that feeling. Or lack of feeling, I guess. But it's empty and means nothing. So I guess I took it to feel something, but also because I want to believe my ability isn't all bad.

[foxtwo]

never be afraid to speak your mind. it's your most important and beautiful asset.

what's nice? that his happiness makes me happy? he's gone through a lot. he deserves it.

pain is feeling, even if it's not the best of them. it's good to have known pain. it's important, i think, to know it and recognize it.
what's your power, exactly?